The idea had been sitting with me since the evening of the meeting. The unsettled feeling began with an attendee's vehement objection to the use of a certain big-box retailer in the functioning of the natural food store on whose board I sit. He passionately argued against the purchase of a membership to said retailer, all but mounting a soapbox in his speech assuring us of the absolute fall of society due to these stores and this brand specifically.
(I usually sit on my hands, literally in this case, when such things come up. This time I had to have my 2-cents (quickly shot down) because said retailer, where we frequently shop, is also an excellent employer to a close family member, and, with that, certainly supports local economy. After my brief say, I stayed quiet and let the rant end naturally.)
But what I thought most about isn't about the claims that were made or the discussion (of which there was much) that followed. I realized and remembered, when I returned home and re-hashed the conversation, with much drama and hand waving, to my husband, that this isn't about natural food. It's about religion. And the sin of the usage of big box retailer required full condemnation.
For a while, as I've sat this board, I've been thinking about how hard it must be to live with a food-based religion: the religion of health/natural/organic/local (take your pick, one or all) food. Absolutely-no-white-sugar-no-dairy-based religion. Where-did-it-come-from-or-I-won't-let-it-past-my-lips religion. Anti-big-business anti-corn anti-oil anti-factory-farm anti-conventional-medicine (there, I think that covers all of my relatives' occupations) religion.
Obviously, this is a works-based religion: constant concern, constant vigilance, constant worry. Keep studying, reading, researching, who's bad-listed this week? With my obsessive... obsessing, I keep myself and my family safe from Those Who will do Anything for a Dollar and Could Not Care Less about Me or My Health. It's exhausting listening to them. I often go home and have a cup of hot chocolate (that's dairy and sugar, you know).
I have to be careful here... we don't, as a general family rule, eat artificial colors, flavors, preservatives. I do specifically look to avoid these things. We buy organic when we can, local when we bother. But... we eat out. Sometimes our pizza comes from the fridge (let's see, what kind of cheese do we have leftover this week?) and sometimes from a box, from around the corner (that's local, right?). Although we buy parts of grass-fed beef quarters, sometimes we eat, well,
other meat. Moderation. Balance. Thoughtfulness.
But you know, it's not our religion. We are called to take care of what we've been given: ourselves, our families, "the earth." But most of all we (and everyone else for that matter, whether they acknowledge it or not) are called to be true and faithful to God and His commands. "Serving and loving Him, serving and loving others" as Greta is learning for catechism this week.
I'm *not* supposed to be worried about "whether my meat has been offered to idols" (the apostle Paul: I Corinthians 8). Meat's only meat. I'm a Christian, who, by my eating both what's good for me and what I like, without ranting and raving, shows others where my priorities lie.
That being said, what works-based faiths
do we create for ourselves? When do I say, about "not-specifically-religious" things, "Oh, I couldn't do/go/eat
that?" Or think the way I
do something shows that I
am something. Or makes me be a certain way. That family over there does That this way, and look at their Awesome Life! I guess what I'm wondering is, when do I think that certain of my works make me "better?" (And Who really is the only One who can make us better?)
So the only works of which I should be concerned are those that help me serve and love God and neighbor. And even that, only and ever through the help of the Holy Spirit, never of myself.
For another side of the "worried about the world" thought process:
"Now godliness with
contentment is great gain." I Timothy 6:6
All right... back to photography and knitting and kids and homeschooling.